(this pic has nothing to do with my post, but it needs a picture.)Well....my birthday has come and gone. I feel no more wiser or older than I did a week ago, but still...yeah 15?
Anyway, I don't know what is wrong around here, especially at school. Its almost scary. Actually, its annoying, incredibly, blisteringly annoying. My annoyance is unfathomable. Especially the fact that the grievance that annoys me is so trivial. I hate these shallow things, and I hate how much hype goes into them, but I just can't escape them. They are a part of normal highschool, teenage life. However, for those abnormally clear-headed and logical few such as myself, these normalities hurt my intelligence. I mean, just look at this paragraph, how repetitive and boring it must seem; how many times did I use annoying or annoyace? Exactly. It stupidity-inducing, these trivial highschool formalities.
At risk of sounding pompous or school girl I've delayed the exact reason for the rant, but I see that I cannot let the mystery go on much longer. Its a Winter Formal. Military Ball, to be exact, since I am in JROTC. I would not pay much attention to this otherwise, of course I would go if only to dance, but all of these...bothersome rituals are--dare I say it again--annoying. And now that everyone has decided that I am to be "Freshman Attendent" for the girls, its a horrid nightmare. Its like being in homecoming court, for JROTC. But that isn't the worst problem, now every damn guy, freshman to senior, who has ever had a crush on me is asking me to go. Its maddening! I'm not the dating type, I have a serious commitment problem, yet I'm bombarded.
I've tried twice now to relinquish this "honor" to the runner-up. But she won't take it because, and I quote, "I don't take hand-me-downs from charity." Isn't that infuriating? Not only did I not even want to be in the running, she gets pissy because someone who didn't want it wins. Its not my fault! And to call me charity! Thats just plain rude. I even told her if she would stop being so stuck up and helped other people and not just herslef every now and again more people would like her. Apparently that was not a good thing to say. Which I don't understand; I was only being honest and she acts as if I had slapped her or insulted her mother.
I might have to chalk this insanity up to the weird air around here. Its like Tennessee can't decide whether or not it wants to have a really early Spring or a really cold Winter. Then there is the fact that everyone seems to be coupling. Its starting to freak me out. Does everyhting change in highschool? Do girls loose their pride and minds over boys like everyone is now? Do guys loose what little intelligence they had in the first place do be on the football team to get the girls? I find this rather confusing myself. It was getting stupid in middle school but now it is just plain idiotic.
I've always had a lot of guys that were friends, most of them older than me. Now in highschool you can't be firends with a guy without people thinking you're dating. Heaven forbid you are friends with multiple guys and guys with girlfriends. Then everything gets hairy. A mess, a mess, a mess. I hate this drama. And there seems to be no way to stop it. (if there are any pointers out there, I'd love to be clued in)
Well, enough of this mentally deteriating fluff. Its taken me a week, I believe, to write this post. I started forever ago and now re-reading it it feels like I'm an example of the very girls I laugh at. Sigh. Oh well, perhaps I've gotten this out of my system. Actually I'm pretty positive that I have; it seems even more frivoulous now then it did at the time....I think this post needs some pictures.
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